Nobody said it would be easy...

Hey everyone!  Here is a quick update: Life is amazing!  For many, many reasons -- I am sure a longer update will follow soon. :)

In the meantime, I have started an LJ devoted to making everyone aware of the queer, queer friendly, and queer activist things that are happening around the OC! Check it out - friend it, love it, be it!  Let me know where improvements can be made!

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Remember: Still a work in progress! :)

I updated the look of my journal -- FINALLY.


Okay - now I*m really going to pack...

Libra -
"You are facing a conflict that is challenging you. Whether you 'want to play the game' or not, its playing you. Step up to the plate and defend yourself because nobody else will. It's not in your nature to allow yourself to be walked on. If you don't demonstrate that, people will assume your a doormat."


Wow. Astrology, sometimes I love you.

Here it is -- official party invite!
What: Holiday Party -- No presents -- just fun!

When: After the Camp Scherman Holiday Party on Saturday, the 7th!

Who: All the campy typey people!

Where: My humble abode!

Why: Because we like you!! :)

Few notes: BYOB! And enough to share if you*d like! Make sure to bring a smile -- chapstick, nalgene..., and a towel too, whoo! :) Also -- call if you have any questions!! It*s time to party!!

Oh -- and RSVP via email please! Rainbowchick1125@yahoo.com -- or call me!

And if I am not at the party -- please make sure to invite Joyce!!! :)

Hello Schermanites!  It*s been quite a while since I*ve been on LJ -- I am now a MySpace addictee - if it*s not one it*s the next I suppose.

Anyway -- I was thinking that all you campy type people who are going to the holiday party can join me at my house shortly after you leave the holiday party.  We can have our own off-camp property party! :)  let me know who would be interested so I know if I shall make plans or not.  And talk to people that are not on LJ but are camp typey people to see if they*d be interested.  Call or post here and let me know!

Whitney!

I*m back! I'm at work -- doing nothing because Peter and I went on strike until we get paid. Yeah! The kids are banging on the doors and it's sort of a reminder of the old creepy movies.. Dawn of the Dead -- Apartment Version. So yeah. I am a month and a half late on my paycheck. So we wait. Anyway, things are good -- I go back to my other job at 7:30 and until then Mr. Peter and I are hanging out! Yay!! He's going to start reading my blog too -- so be nice to the only male on the site! :) weird.

In the next twenty four hours, my journal will become a Friends' Only Journal. If you would like to be on my friends' list, please comment and I will add your name.

Thanks.

So.. is it completely weird that I am half way through my college 'experience' and am thinking that I may want to change my major? It*s weird.. I love theatre. I love doing it, I love learning it, I love that I don*t know everything about it. But.. honestly.. if I close my eyes and picture myself in.. fifteen years.. i definitely don*t see myself in theatre! I see myself making more a difference... organizing things like AIDS walks, fighting for Women's Rights, Gay Rights... but here*s the question: What major should I change to? And is it too late? I*m trying not to overthink it.. except that I*m at the time in my life where I need to make my decisions. BUT I could also start making a difference through political theatre. For example, the Vagina Monologues.. they made such a HUGE impact by the mere fact that women were talking about all the things they "shouldn't".. sex, masturbation, pornography. I know that my major isn*t my determining factor.. but I want to at least learn while i*m in college what I want to do! Soo.. here*s my question.. where do I start changing the world.. I want to change it.. but how? Any ideas? AHH!

Anyone know what quixotic means?

A subject line! I was looking at the handy dandy new layout! and I got really bored with all the 'No Subject' lines.. so now I*m going to try my best to make every entry have a subject line! Wow.. that was sorta like the Girl Scout motto: Changing Girls. One girl at a time. Which sounds like a good lesbian motto for me! Maybe that can be the motto of my Fundamental Lesbian group. Dum de dum.. still awake!

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan
And do you think I'm wasting my time
Doing things I wanna do
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
Can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

My Dad just screamed at me for no reason. I don't understand what I've done anymore. My mom makes it apparent that she doesn*t care about anything I do.. and my Dad has been on edge with me. I remember why I miss camp now. Because somehow your parents like you so much better when they don*t see you very often. *sigh* Well... blah. What a frustrating day! I think Dana and I are better. That was a plus. I talked to Miss Liz -- that was a plus!!!! Happiness... think happy thoughts! Goodnight!! :)

"Somewhere over the rainbow, bluebirds fly.... why oh why can't I?

Isn*t it funny that some people have blogs and you never even knew about it?

It's early, like... 10:30 and i*m awake. Weird, I don*t know what to do with myself. Some people may call that a luxury.. I think it*s more of a hindrance. I mean. I could go shower and get ready... for what? Hmm.. I*m sure I can think of something.

YAY! IT*S FRIDAY! That means that tomorrow I get to hang out with Elizabeth (Rocket) and Sunday I get to see Jessica (Babar)! Oooh, too bad I can't get ready for that right now!

OH OH OH! The countdown! Wait for it.. wait for it... 15 days, 13hours, and 25 minutes! 24 minutes! Yay! It*s so close I can almost taste it. Well, I guess that doesn*t apply because I still won*t be able to buy liquor. BUT I*ll be able to buy cigarettes (ew), sign a lease, gamble at an indian casino, buy a lotto ticket, yay! Happy day! I*m so anxious for my birthday.. I don*t even really know why.. except that it*s the big 18 and maybe then I can go see the people I miss like hell!

Reasons why Victorville bites:
We don't have any grass. (I admitted it, Liz)
What kind of name is Victorville?
The school sucks.
We're nextdoor to the Meth capitol of the US
Everyone I know is on the East Coast..
if they aren*t, well they*ll move.
The school sucks. Super sucks.
It's hot. It's cold. It's windy.
The school name is Victor Valley College.
The school super sucks. super-duper sucks.
There aren't enough gay people.
There's too much drama here.
The school royally sucks.

Wow, so it*s been like two days since I*ve posted. School has been hectic! Class every night from 6-10 and GUESS WHAT! I*m joining the gay club! Whoohoo for gay-ness. *sigh* I finally found where I can find at least a small community while I am at RCC. Won*t that be lovely?

Went to Jennifer last night. Fucked things up with Dana. I called her today.. I hope that it*ll work out. Maybe it*s not as bad as I assume.. or maybe it*s worse. We*ll see.

Had a shitty day when I got home, I have to go to VVC now (sigh) and go fix my transcript issues! I dyed my hair! I have to scan a picture of it -- I think it*s CUTE! hehe, exciting. That is definitley a plus! :)

Today is happy. Yay for life. OH! and I really want a Live Strong bracelet.. any ideas where I could scope them out? Let me know!

I have to get out of this desert. I have to... it*s for sure now, I need to go FAR AWAY! Anyone willing to move with me? I*ll cook dinner every night! (WITHOUT NUTS! :)

YAY FOR THEATRE! YAY FOR COLLEGE! YAY FOR GAY PEOPLE!

Okay.. well let*s see... it*s been a while since my last posting! (yes, I*m sorry.. life sorta got busy since then!) and so much has changed. My career-goals, my school goals, and my appearance. Well, sorta. I think.

Anyway, it*s super late.. like 12:23 (soo late.. but on the East Coast it*s 3:23.. so I think it should qualify!) and I am SO tired.. but I still have so much to do. Instead of doing my sister's homework (don*t ask.) I'm messin around on the internet. Nice, huh? Oh well. I only have 3 (out of 4) chapters to do. I don*t wanna talk about it.

Today was an alright day! It was crazy busy though, I drove down to Ontario for a 1 o clock meeting (because my parents want me to go to a Trade School for Medical Assisting and X-ray Technician-ing.), drove back up -- got my hair cut -- drove home, talked to my parents for like 30 minutes about how I don*t know how to make adult decisions and I shouldn*t have an opinion because my Mom is the one with the hindsight and i*m doing everything wrong. Well, maybe i*m exaggurating -- I would hate to make her look bad.. but that*s sure how I felt the conversation went. I guess we don*t communicate well. She*ll agree. Then I drove down to Riverside, worked and worked and played with power tools and worked. Then around.. I think it was like 11.. I drove home. I*m soo tired!

So I came home and now i*m avoiding homework and thinking about tomorrow. I*m really nervous, tomorrow I have to go to VVC and clean up some stuff on my transcripts so I can actually apply to colleges that my family would never want me to go to. I*m nervous about going back there, though. Just driving by it makes me bawl and miss the theatre. *sigh* don*t even get me started on that!! Maybe things will improve once I get into production. I guess I just wish we had a booth, and small props, and large props, and a backstage, and a greenroom. But maybe i*m just spoiled with all those things. Or was spoiled, I guess. Anyways! Here I am.. in my pink and blue plaid pajamies, a Georgia-tech sweatshirt (that I got from someone SUPER COOL!) socks (white, in case you were wondering), and a 2-liter bottle of Diet Pepsi. Screw that whole cup thing. Hehe. Yay Diet Pepsi!

Well, not that I*ve written a novel, I guess I should go do some sort of homework! Have a good night! Yay for short hair! Yay for gas prices going down! Yay for the East Coast! Yay for LIFE!